Ramblings, things that are interesting or puzzlements to me....What makes a tornado decide to demolish one house and not another? I've been watching the videos of all the recent tornados and I just get to wondering about things like that.
Why do paper cuts hurt so badly?? I mean, it's not like you had major surgery or anything..but a paper cut can hurt for days..why??? And speaking of major surgery...I just had one...man did that hurt...but just give me some drugs and I'm good!
Why does it seem that the more I want to do, the less I get done?? Before I had my surgery, I had planned to get the spare bath painted and the house all cleaned...but when it came down to it, I didn't get the painting done, I didn't get the master bath cleaned and I didn't get the carpet cleaned that I had planned to do. Why can't I get caught up on the 'list'???? Of course, now I have a reason, but before that, I just don't get it.
I watched a show today where a couple had 2 little boys and were about to have another baby,this time a girl. Makes me remember how I wanted to try for a girl, just one more baby....but how the country doc I had and all the family I had told me "no more babies" and I went with it and had a tubal...at 20! How I wish I would have held strong to 'my inner voice' and just had a 3rd, I'm sure I could have had that girl...and if not, I'd still have had another son to add to the crazy life we've had!
"If I had only listened to my inner voice"...we should remember that...listen to what you need, listen to what The Spirit is telling you and you can never go wrong. It's when we allow others to influence what you do and think, that you are not being true to you. God knows your heart, God knows what's right for you and if you listen to that small, still voice, you can't go wrong. But I've been told to 'be this way', 'don't do this', 'do this instead' and I've not been true to me. I've been hurt deeply by those that try to impose their ideas on me and I've been learning to stand up for myself. One time that I took a stand, it was the right thing to do for me. I said to myself, you are not going to be bullied this time. And since I took that stand, I feel better about myself. Bullies can make you bend over backwards to please them, but I said, no more. And the less contact I have with them, the more I feel freed from their constant manipulation and negativity.
When you look back and realize your life could have been different if you hadn't listened to other people's ideas of who you should be, you become a bit jaded about listening to other's opinions. I could have had that daughter that I wanted so badly. Listen to your inner voice. And if it tells you that you need to change things in your life to be what God wants or what is right for you, change it. Don't go to extremes like I did and have a tubal when the answer could be, just wait.
I guess I'm having one of those hormonal surges that they say happens after a hysterectomy, but I am learning so much about what God has for me and what others can't be for me. And I'm learning how to let go of dreams I've carried for so long of things that won't ever be, can't ever be. It's very hard to realize that what you had thought life was going to turn out to be, won't ever be. Things about family, extended family, about relationships, about the future. I have what I have, God gave me what He gave me, and I have to let go of the pipe dreams that I thought my life would be.
Well, these have been the ramblings of a hormonal crazy person with 3 cats and a husband! Thanks for letting me ramble. :)
Tornadoes are just random nature, like a reverse lottery. God isn’t targeting anybody, but the world he created is filled with dangers. It’s like the little girl in school who draws the black jelly bean out of the giant jar and loses the game. The teacher didn’t have it in for her; she just happened to draw the black jelly bean (or get hit by a tornado, or get cancer, or whatever).
ReplyDeletePaper is processed/smushed wood, and when it cuts you, it leaves lots of microscopic wood particles behind, not to mention whatever chemicals go into the making of paper. Naturally, your body freaks out after such a nasty intrusion.
I’m the wrong person to ask about getting things done. Someone else can answer that one.
Obviously, prayer (i.e. walking with God and listening to those inner voices) is important, but God also puts those other people in your life, and he can sometimes use them to teach or guide you. Bullies are always bad, but don’t let yourself get too jaded. You’re not that 20-year-old girl anymore — sorry! — and you’re discernment skills have grown dramatically, I’m sure. But if you won’t listen to others, there will be nothing to discern, and your continued growth will be impacted.
I’m sure you already all of this, but you’re just caught up in those hormonal ramblings. :-)
Please keep getting better fast, Miss Debbie. I’m sure you’re energy level will soon be soaring!